Lost control.

Things i had accomplished today: Zero.

I woke up at 8am and started watching Mai Otome till 2pm and the hell, the last episode is not available -__-

Ah well.

Thout it would be work time but I only managed to type a little bit more for my narrative and then I FELL ASLEEP?!

I couldn't focus at all today!! the HELL!!l =_="
I feel really restless today, i dunnoe why... sigh... Issac taught us a couple of researching techniques eh...the what,how and why flow of asking things, so today i asked myself the couple of questions when i asked myself some time ago or quite a long time ago...

What's my purpose in life? What's my future gonna be like?

How come roses have thorns? =X -emo-

ultimately, why am i borned in this fucked up world?

lol, these few questions can nver be answered eh...
PS. dun get too worried over me ;p normal lvl of emoness still. lalala~

I thought that humans are really sad... they grow up studying like shit, then work like shit and then gets bury under the earth... Thinking of which, it's like humans are just like tools...

Yes, people might be aware of this fact but how can they just let things go on in this cycle... this vicious cycle... maybe there's nothing we can do about it... that's why...

I really hate the person who invented money -_-

The moment that i like most... it would be the time when I was asleep.
To be able to be freed from this mundane world and spared from all those craps.
When I fall aslp, I don't dream... It's just perfect darkness and silence, it's smoothing... I never felt so relaxed in my entire life ever. But the hell, every morning the darn alarm will ring and there's goes... ah well..

Tutorial 2 awaits... and MRTL... and VPT... and lots more...

Emo + Random = Weirdo! lululu

Ice of reality.

Got tagged =_= so I guess I'll just do it. I just needa list six of them and supposed to pass to 6 other peeps but ah well, the laziness in me saved you guys from being listed XD

Idiosyncrasy

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id·i·o·syn·cra·sy
n. pl. id·i·o·syn·cra·sies
1. A structural or behavioral characteristic peculiar to an individual or group.
2. A physiological or temperamental peculiarity.
3. An unusual individual reaction to food or a drug.

Idiosyncrasy Number 1
I'm Emo.

Idiosyncrasy Number 2
I crave for human meat, sometimes. Beware (;

Idiosyncrasy Number 3
The smell of paint and tinner smells great.

Idiosyncrasy Number 4
I don't like to be surrounded by strangers, else i will suffocate.

Idiosyncrasy Number 5
I can tell what u're thinking/feeling thru ya eyes. Well, 99% right on target. (not super power like someone who claims so, but being observant) Expressions itself speaks a lot more than words.

Idiosyncrasy Number 6
I somehow like adult films more then PG or G or NC16 films. Think shooting style nicer.

Idiosyncrasy Number 7
I don't watch much TV. not weird meh? I dunnoe =/

Idiosyncrasy Number 8
IF i watch TV, i will have the tendency to analyse the show thats being broadcast.

Idiosyncrasy Number 9
If i hate someone, i really hate them for eternittttyyy~ *echoes* Well, i hardly change my personal view on something.

Idiosyncrasy Number 10
I wrote more than the required! OMG! blah, well, i've planned to do so anyway. =P

and the list goes on//

Well, thats all for the tag thing.

I emo-ed today. lol.

Adeline and Farhana got freaked out this morning when i stepped into the class. My bad~ Well, I watched fate/stay night and i emo-ed. It knocked some sense into me and thus, the emo-ness.

I just deleted a paragraph of some stuffs i typed. ah well...

anyway, xy O_O! what happened to your blog!? your style suddenly changed like some storm machiam raided ya brain and took away your originality! And Zh! where are you!?! your blog like dead =_=!

My sec sch fren > My poly sch fren. It's a proven theory. Back to the pool of projects. but somehow, im slacking =_= " or at least i feel slacky if there's such a word =_=

Zuu

Benefit of being a Art, design and media student : You got an excuse to go to the Zoo cause of projects :/ but on the brighter note, it's da holy ZOO!11!!

Yap went there to gather some photos of the polar bear; the animal i am suppose to work at for my projects. -_- Lots of mixed feelings after coming back from the zoo trip. Wahahhaha. That's all I gonna reveal.

I wonder if the world would be a better place with or without ...

Humans.

I hate humans.
I hate their shallow maturity.
I hate their attitude.
I hate their selfishness.
I hate them for their existence.
I hate that human who invented money.
I hate human bone structure (so hard to draw).
I hate human body also.
I hate... I hate...

I dunnoe.

Sien... back to projects! lululu.

N . A .

Fourth day of school!!! And I'm so TIRED! GRRR. Ah well, anyway, I think I am adapting pretty well...just dead tired. BUT one thing that really make me so stressed out is the tons of assignments!

They actually released the assignment(S), note the "s", even before school officially opens! =( "So dead!!! -jumps off- XD!"


Ah well, hope i can cope with all these workloads >_> oh ya, the only thing that ease the pain of doing these assignments is that I get to go to the ZOO! WAHAHAHAH, been a really long time since i've been there but this time round need go there and observe the animal that I am suppose to model in 3D and draw them and take photographs of them and maybe a video of them ignoring you. -_-

Recently watched a R21 movie XD on Youtube called "Eternal Summer" . It has won tons of awards but one thing about it which makes it R21 is that it involved gay theme and some sexual scenes. The director really got some really nice shots in there and the editing of the movie is really clean! The female lead's acting skills is really nice, reminds me of shu qi, first of all, it's pitch silent, only ambience sound in da movie then she gt some expressionless face and suddenly one drop of tear rolled down her cheeks, so cool =D! (ya lah, drama -..-)


<<< ETERNAL SUMMER
Rating: R21

Consumer Advice: Mature Theme
Language: Mandarin with Chinese and English subtitles
Genre: Youth / Gay /Drama

Director: Leste Chen
Cast: Bryant Chang, Joseph Chang, Kate Yueng

Awards and Nominations :
- New Currents Competition, 2006 Pusan International Film Festival
- Winds of Asia, 2006 Tokyo International Film Festival
- Opening, 2006 Hong Kong Lesbian & Gay Film Festival
- Official Selection, 2006 South Taiwan Film & Video Festival
- 2006 Golden Horse Awards Nomination (Four Nominations including Best Supporting Actor
– Joseph Chang, Best Newcomer
– Joseph Chang & Bryant Chang, Best Original Film Song)
- 2006 Golden Horse Awards Best Newcomer


– Bryant Chang Shane and Jonathan first meet at a seaside elementary school. Shane is a problem child whereas Jonathan is a star pupil. One day, the teacher sets up a game called “Little Guardian Angel” where good students are paired with bad students in order to reform them. What started off as an awkward friendship gradually evolves into forbidden love. Everything seems so natural until one lonely girl Carrie enters their lives. Against the backdrop of a devastating earthquake in Taiwan, the trio guards the secret until they revisit the seaside once more… >>>

I dun understand why ppl are avoiding this movie just because it's gay theme or rated R21 -__-" It's a great movie but i personally think that the ending SUCKS. Maybe it's because i dont understand it but i like the shooting style, the cutting of scenes and such are really nice but one thing i've noticed is that the director din give any headroom for the actors, I wonder if it's delibrate...

Ah well, one movie down the next one - Nightmare Detective. Actually I wanna watch this in the cinema when it's in Sg , but the gore and such made it M18, fuck -_-

<<< Nightmare Detective
Rating: M18

Consumer Advice: Violence and gore
Language: Japanese Genre:Thriller

Director: Shinya Tsukamoto
Cast: Ryuheu Matsuda, Hitomi, Masanobu Ando, Ren Osugi, Yoshio Harada, Shinya Tsukamoto

Website: http://www.festivefilms.com/nightmare

A Japanese detective investigates two mysterious suicides, somehow connected as the two victims dialed "0" on their mobiles moments before their death. The detective comes to learn of a man who has the supposed ability to manipulate people's dreams, and if the case is going to be solved, the detective succumbs to the realization that she must dial the mysterious "0" herself ... >>>

watched the preview, it's not bad =D

....

Grrr, why im not 18?! (YET!) -__- No, it should be WHY RATED M18 ?! ZZZZ. Like children will go watch this kind movie like that -___-" think they will wanna catch some animated cartoon penguins movie like this one :

<<< surf's up
Rating: TBA
Language: English

Genre: Animation / Action / Comedy / Family
Director: Ash Brannon, Chris Buck
Cast (Voice) : Dana Belben, Brian Benben, Jeff Bridges, Mario Cantone, Zooey Deschanel

An animated feature that goes behind the scenes of the high-octane world of competitive penguin surfing. The film profiles Cody Maverick , an up-and-coming surfer as he enters his first pro competition. Inspired by his hero, a legendary wave rider named Big Z, Cody leaves his family and his town of Shiverpool, Antarctica to travel to Pen-Gu Island for the Big Z Memorial Day Surf Contest. Cody believes that fame and fortune will bring him the admiration and respect he lacks. But when he unexpectedly comes face to face with a washed up old surfer named the Geek, Cody begins to understand that the greatest champion isn’t always the one who comes in first.>>>

So, we got another penguin moovie after "Happy Feet" . Jeb and I were saying maybe there be another movie about penguin trying hard to FLY since we've got penguins dancing (Happy Feet)and surfing (the above) already. -___-"


Oh ya, watched 300 in italian -_- it's really spastic. It's an okay movie for me, the gore and such are so funny XD!

oh one last thing which make me believed that the ratings for movies are so screw is this:

<<<VILLAGE PEOPLE RADIO SHOW

Rating: NC16
Consumer Advice: Content Not Suitable For Children
Genre: Documentary
Director: Amir Muhammad

In the propaganda war against the Communist Party of Malaya (CPM), much was made of the fact that the party comprised ethnic Chinese who adopted an atheistic political philosophy. This tactic proved effective as the country was mainly Malay and Muslim. However, a large and influential division of the CPM comprised Malay-Muslims. This documentary is a portrait of life in a tranquil South Thailand village, complete with mosque, where the retired members live in exile. Recollections of the decades-long guerrilla war are interspersed with a fictional Thai radio drama.>>>

NOTE: it's a documentary.

LOL! Like children(age 1 - 10, in my personal view, but nowadays, maybe age 1 -14 bah) will machiam go watch documentary in Cinema like that, even if they are loaded with money, i think they will go for something more entertaining like some penguins action XD!

ME ME ME!!!

Got bored and so I tried this... anyhow choosed those maths questions cause it's 3am now, couldn't bother to go calculate~

Meh, holidays ending T_T ! Time to die, again!

... read below >_<

I diagnosed to be down with Myocardial infarction which explains the chest pains and such >_>

It's heart attk. >_> Yup, i got that. and YAH, i gt high blood pressure >_>
Dunnoe how am I gonna die. ZZZ..

No more Laksa. like damn.....

RE:

HEYA guys, I'm feeling damn bad alrdy >_> and here's why, cause...

HAPPY APRIL FOOL DAY!

yup, it's just a April Fool Day's joke =X
You may now take your cue to throw things at me or kill me alrdy >_>

Nope, I dun think I gt Myocardial infarction cause I haven go for my check up yet >_> but the chest pain and such part do happened to me and that's why I checked up some illness symptoms and such, reading up as much as i can, in hope to find out wads exactly wrong with me instead of seeing a doctor and the doctor tells me wad am I actually suffering from.

I am really, really sorry to make you guys worried about me SO MUCH >_>

So i will heed all of your advises and sleep early and such!!! ARGH~ I read xy's blog, tag , morning msn msg(when i woke up and checked the comp), kelly's and angela's tag I feel that Im an asshole for i had cheated all of your feelings >_> So i told myself that I better make this follow-up post ASAP >_>

Hmm.. guess imma Emo cause in my personal view, if i died, it means just die loh... no less, no gain...

However, I'm not selfish, I do think of the aftermath, like after I die, will you guys cry for me? I noe my mum gonna be damn sad, my sis and my dad also..hahah... ah well But even IF i do die someday sooner or later, I want you guys to be optimistic at least~ not worth crying over spilled milk! but if you all cant control, just cry it out LOUD lah! It feels better.

It still kinda scarred me that my grandfather died and left my family when I was P5. He died due to some blood circulation prob. similar to stroke and yah, my family got this history of stroke, heart attk and blah. I missed those days when he will bought back durians (he did not buy them! He actually picked them in some forest place, no one noes where though) and then me and my cousins will just sit in the kitchen awaiting for him to open up the durians then start eating! We talk, learnt how to open durians and such in the kitchen while my mum and my aunts will be nagging us ,kids, to drink salt water or more water after those durians. Or else fever or some stupidest illness will come after you! I missed those days so much.
Ah well, the past's past! Needa move on with life as usual. Once again, Im really sry !! Really don't mean to cheat all of your feelings... haha. My bad XD!